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Welcome to allergy season! Guess who forgot to take her allergy meds this morning? Just call me sneezy.

I'm attempting to eat a little bit healthier. I don't want to be constantly battling myself my whole life, and I figure that now while I'm younger, I have a better chance of getting myself back in shape. I presently have a 24 pack of Diet Coke in my room, and when it's gone, I'm not buying more. I don't need anything else to puff me up! Hopefully I'll be able to start working out soon... my knee hasn't been as bad today, but there are plenty other body parts that can try to rebel on me.

I'm at a bit of a crossroads in my life right now. I'm really afraid to move away from my family, but I don't want to be far away from Bill either. I just don't see the point in me finding a job in Denver, moving me and all my crap out there, and then in another year having to pack it all up and move back to Dayton when Bill goes back to school. Then I'd have to find another job and another place to live! It just doesn't make any sense. Ideally, what I want to have happen is for Bill to move to Dayton now and work and then go to school 2nd semester, and then I wouldn't have to move all over the place. But he doesn't think he'll get a job in Dayton, and the Americorps thing is a guarantee. But where's my guarantee?? Let's say I move to Denver, get a job and a place to live and then Bill breaks up with me. Then what do I do? I'd be in a strange city with no friends and no family and no boyfriend. He hasn't even told me he loves me yet. I just don't feel comfortable throwing away my life for someone who doesn't love me.

But here's the catch: I love him so much it hurts to not be with him. :-(

~ Christine